Now that was a stupid thing to go and do....

Watching "Dirty Dancing" on TV. Yeah, you read that right.

"Now why was that stupid?" You might reasonably ask.

Well... because it gets me all mushy and romantical feeling and looking at Patrick Swayze only makes me compare him to George (who comes out favourably) and gets me all thinking about what *could* have been, had George been ready... had I been ready. Now I know I am. But he is not.

Will I ever find someone who is? Someone who offers what George gave me and more? My heart breaks with doubt and lonlieness.

Stupid.

Stupid.