A good day following a few good days. Continuing to do my morning pages has eased the stranglehold that my worries had on me. Talking to Matthew helped a lot, too... he has been trying so hard and doing all the right things. I am so in love with the man again. Isn't it fascinating how a few days and a few actions can change *everything*?

I want to make babies with this man. It's been a long time since I felt that way!

*whee!*

So today I rediscovered that morning pages, playing with horses, and talking to my husband are all good things for me to do to get out of the rut that I was in. It didn't look like the day was going to start off well at all... I woke up at 6am and couldn't get another man out of my head. BAd news. Obsessive news. So I finally got up at 7 and started writing morning pages. Morning pages good. Deciding to play with horses GOODER! Went to Carolyn's and played with her horse and with Titan. fun stuff. It's more fun for me to play with my horses now, though... cuz I know what we're working on. I have no clue where they're at so it makes it more difficult to be provocative and challenging enough vs. friendly enough etc. Have to learn to read the horse MORE!

I digress...

Things aren't as dire as I last wrote, but they can shift at any moment... How will we get through this? Will we get through it? Who knows?! I'll try to enjoy the ride. Honestly.

Meeting with Community Futures tomorrow... then hopefully a signing the day afterwards. OMG. I FRICKIN' HOPE SO!@!!#&!#)_!&@# Keep all your bits crossed for me.

Apologies for the previous two days worth of drama.