So.... I actually did it yesterday. I told my Group Lead that I wanted to leave. I think he was really very relieved - because he didn't want to have to fire someone he likes and respects. He just feels that I'm not suited to this job. I'm cool with that. The level of stress around here has suddenly vanished for me... but so has any kind of motivation to actually WORK. ;-) I keep joking... "What are they going to do? Fire me?!" *giggle*

Anyway.. it's a slightly scary proposition, leaving one's job without having another one to go to... but in this case, I don't have any minimum expectations for a job... what I want is part time, flexible hours that'll let me bring home enough money to pay the rent, put a few hundred on the debt and eat. I'm working on reducing all extraneous expenses (hence getting rid of the cell phone) and I'm trying to live more simply.

I attended my first meeting of the Emerald Pig Theatrical Society last night - what a great bunch of people! After the brief meeting, we all did Improv for about an hour! SO MUCH FUN! I think I'm really going to enjoy working with them all... now to find a pottery studio I can work at/learn at in Maple Ridge and all will be well!

Something sad in all this wonderfulness - my Grandmother isn't long for this world. She's a strong lady... she's 93 and she's fought Cancer for a long time. My mother, I'm so proud of her, seems to have finally come to grips with the fact that her mother is going to be gone - she wants her to go and rest, in fact, and she's dealing so well with it all. I don't feel very close to my Grandma, but I do have an enormous amount of respect and love for her. I will be glad when she no longer has to suffer, and I will always have the memory of her spark and spirit and determination. I love you Mom. I love you Grandma. God Speed and go and enjoy your rest.

Just so's y'all know... I have cancelled my cell phone. I am free of the $$ per month! I am free of communications in between destinations! There are pay phones everywhere if I need them and I don't have to remember to charge them up. =) Plus... pretty much everyone else has a cell phone if I'm in dire need. ;-)

If you need my number and you don't have it, email me, icq me, contact me somehow and I'll give you the latest info.

Still haven't managed to actually put notice in at work - it's almost like I'm waiting for them to do it for me. I also don't want to lose my dental benefits just as I'm getting a night guard made. The dentist won't bill me for it until it's delivered on the 17th. Ah well. Whatever will be, will be. Que cera cera. C'est la vie.

I'll keep you all posted on the details. Honest.