Yegads. Hanging out with my Mom for two days is enough. I love her, but really - she drives me mad. That and she seems to be seriously manic depressive. I'm worried about her, but I've tried to help her as much as I can... but really it is up to her to find help for herself. She tells me, in tears, about feeling overwhelmed, feeling like leaving Dad, feeling attacked all the time by everyone, feeling unworthy, feeling unloved, feeling rejected, feeling alone, feeling suicidal. I don't know what to do for her other than tell her I love her and urge her to seek help from outside the family. Seek help from someone impartial who will be on her side. Seek help from someone who can give her tools to deal with the feelings and help her to disover where they stem from.... just get help.

Having everything I do - right or "wrong" - be all about me doing it "to her" is really starting to wear irritatingly thin. I have to tune her out sometimes to deal calmly with her, but I know she really just needs help. I don't have the time, skills or energy to be that help, however.

I'm so glad I get to go to the clay symposium tomorrow, stay with another student and her sister tomorrow night, and then home on Sunday.