Another long day at the office.... this one offset by Pho goodness for dinner... albeit not with the crowd I was truly wanting to eat with. Tomorrow I come straight home so I can do laundry. Wow. What an exciting life. At least by doing laundry I'm being true to myself. Yeah.

Thought about the instructor again on and off today. Fantasies ruling my brain. I'm slowly coming out of the daze... I find if I keep telling myself what I'm working towards and focus on that instead I can function normally... or as close to it as I ever get. What do I want? My. Own. Home. Mine. All. Mine. After I do that, we'll see what comes in the way of loving relationships. I'll join that mountain/hiking club for the experience and for ME and that's all there is to it.