*begin rant*

Here I sit, blogging. This usually only happens when things go bad and I can't take it anymore. Such is the case today. I've been feeling neglected, unappreciated and resentful for a while, but somehow I hope that it will change and things will be satisfactory for me... instead of learning from the past and realizing that I need to change my behaviour in order to get what I want. So this morning, I hit the breaking point. Again.

Over coffee.

He won't grind any because he hates the grinder - that's fine, I'll do it. So I do it and make coffee for him and don't realize that he's already put some water into the machine. He comes outside where I'm watering the plants and the grass and generally barely keeping on top of maintenance because he does NONE and asks "Did you make 8 cups?" I say no, I made 6. He says in an angry, accusing voice, "Well, I already put four cups of water in there. I guess I'm not drinking any." I told him not to get pissy about it it was an honest mistake - he just stayed pissy. I tried to tell him I didn't realize it, "You should have looked". Then he asks me if I've sent any more mugs to our friends store in Waterton. Had I known I was supposed to, I would have!!!!! Nobody told me. Jerk.

FUCK YOU!

Why do I do ANYTHING for this man?

Now, it doesn't help that I'm 7 months pregnant and still doing EVERY FUCKING THING. He just doesn't GET IT! He didn't even take his cell phone with him today so I can't call him and tell him off. So I called his work and asked them to get him to call me. I hope he's thought about his attitude. I'm getting really, really sick of it and really really resentful. Not good in a marriage with a baby 2 months away.

*sigh*

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